The Gran Varones is a storytelling project that uses video and photography for Latino Gay and Latino Queer* men. Inspired by Willie Colon’s groundbreaking song “El Gran Varòn,” this project shines a light on what being “out” and “proud” means to us.
louie: so how have you been?
chris aka krush: i have been ok. my art is picking up despite having major challenges this past year. i am getting to a great space.
louie: what is one lesson you learned from those challenges?
krush: the most challenging thing i’ve gone through was truely understanding how to love myself for who i actually am and not how people saw me, not trying to be the “KRUSH” on social media and learning to love the Chris I go to bed as. through this experience i learned that peace is good and accepting yourself is part of progression. i want nothing more than to progress.
interview by: louie a. ortiz-fonseca
krush is a hair and make-up artist/stylist. his work has been printed in both ebony magazine and vibe magazine.
when we started to the gran varones project, we never
imagined that the outcome would be a documentary film. in the winter of 2013,
with a no money, a few iphones, a flip cam and a shoddy microphone, we began
interviewing gay latino men from north philadelphia for a portrait photography
project. our goal was to raise the voices of gay latino men in philadelphia
telling our stories, the stories that often times get left out of the lgbtq
narrative.
in just a few months, we quickly amassed about 20 hours of film.
we knew we had to do something with the footage so we decided to download an
editing program, and learned how to use it as we edited the footage. The final
product is a 55 minute documentary of latino gay men courageously sharing their
stories and experiences.
the “our legacy is alive” documentary is a reminder that we
must tell our stories. the stonewall movie is a sobering truth that if we do
not tell and share our stories, no one will. we hope that you are inspired by
the film to share yours . we hope that this film serves as proof that our
stories can heal and brief life in our communities right here, right now. our
legacy is alive.
project coordinators:
louie a. ortiz-fonseca
anthony leon
sean laughlin
this film and project are dedicated to the courageous varones who have
so generously shared their stories in effort to raise our voices.
special thanks: gloria casarez, brent morales, charlotte sahadeo, erika
amiròn niz, nikki lopez, elicia gonzales, jaymie campbell, kira manser, samantha dato,
raices culturales latinoamericanas, concilio taller puertorriqueño and everyone
who has supported the making of this film and project.
This past weekend, we screened our documentary “Our Legacy
is Alive” on the opening night of Café Con Leche’s“Orgullo!: Pittsburgh Latin@
LGBTQ Pride”. This event was the first of its kind for the city, providing a
platform for our project and for the always magicalBamby Salcedo, who spoke
about the experiences of Latin@ Trans* Immigrants. We knew that we had been
invited to take part in something amazing, but we had no idea we would wind up making
history.
photo by armando garcía
A few months ago, Tara Sherry-Torres, owner & operator
of Café Con Leche, reached out to GALAEIto build community. When GALAEI
connected us to Tara, we could not have been more grateful for her invitation
to participate in “Orgullo!,” which formed part of the larger movement in
Pittsburgh to re-create and re-reclaim Pride.
louie a. ortiz-fonseca & tara sherry-torres
You may have read aboutthe long history of discontent that queer
and trans* people of color and allies have had with The Delta Foundation, the
agency that sponsors Pittsburgh Pride Event. For many years, community members
have voiced their concerns about Delta Pride not being inclusive to black,
brown and trans* folks. This year, those concerns echoed even louder when Iggy
Azalea, who has been known to use her platform to post both racist and homophobic
comments, was announced as the headliner. Community members, who have already
organized alternative Pride Events, the most notable being Trans* Pride and
Black Pride, courageously and publically stated they would boycott this year’s
Delta Pride. This inspired others do to the same. This is huge because it now
challenges not only Pittsburgh’s LGBTQ community but all queer communities to
acknowledge the inequities both within our communities and also within event
that is designed for LGBTQ people to celebrate our pride.
bamby salcedo, louie a. ortiz & armando garcía
While we were there to screen our film, we were provided the
incredible opportunity to build community with others who are committed to
creating visibility for LGBTQ people of color. We shared time and space with fellow
warriors who understand that our collective liberations are inextricably linked
to one-another, and that we must challenge all systems of oppression even when
those oppressions are wrapped in a rainbow flag. We cannot express just how humbling
and inspiring it was to be part of such a powerful and historic event.
pittsburgh’s lovely community leaders and louie a. ortiz-fonseca
“As a Latino, you are taught that blood is thicker than water and to always be there for your family no matter what. When I came out they accepted me for who I was. That doesn’t happen too often in the gay community. Seeing the stigma on gays in society, my family still embraced me with open arms, I am lucky. My close friends are also my family. Growing up in North Philly, you learn the value of loyalty. So when you come across friends with that, you hold onto them.”
GV: tell us about you. LUIS:“my name is jose luis cortes and i am an artist. i was born here even though i wasn’t raised here, i identify with the puerto rican community here. i am proud to be from philly.” GV: how is being a gay latino in puerto rico different from being a gay latino in philadelphia or new York. LUIS: being in puerto rico is great because everyone is puerto rican. but being gay in a big city is different because people are more accepting, more nonchalant and relaxed about it. in puerto rico i have some hang-ups. maybe it’s just me. you know, when you here straight being say “maricón” and you’re like “but why is that?” the language, the culture is so deep to say “maricón.” so i try not to take it personally sometimes. the first gay pride in puerto rico was, i think ten years ago. some people marched with masks on. now the gay pride is so huge and they have two gay prides, one inside the island that’s even bigger than the one in san juan. GV: how has your art impacted your life? LUIS: greatly. the thing is it’s kept me alive. it gives me a sense of drive. very strong. very important.
qpoc: stonewall reinforced white supremacy by erasing qpoc
white gays: calm down! let’s wait to see the entire movie
*reviews come out*
white gays: ok. now we believe you.
Interview with Louie A. Ortíz, director of the film “The Gran Varones” a storytelling project documenting the stories of gay and queer-identifying Boricua and Latino men.Chequéalo →
in 1997, i found myself
at my first philly pride event when a tall handsome and bearded white
man approached me with a pen and clipboard. i remember rolling my eyes; i didn’t
want to sign another petition for some cause that did not directly impact my
life as teen. i was polite though and entertained him by letting him give me
his spiel about gay marriage, which is what it was called in the 90’s. when he
was done, i immediately responded with, “well, i don’t believe in
marriage”. he didn’t flinch. he nodded his head and replied, “well do
you believe in choice?” i paused then signed the petition. of course i
believe in choice, i did then i do now. it was that one interaction however
that would challenge me to explore my thoughts and beliefs about marriage. it
was that moment, with that handsome, bearded white man i asked myself, were my
beliefs independently mine or those influenced by systematic homophobia?
growing up no one ever directly told me i would never be
“allowed” to get married. i assumed by just existing and breathing that the
kind of love i dreamt about could only be expressed through sharing monthly
utility bills and other such grown up type responsibilities. i unconsciously
surrendered to that notion. loving myself and loving another brown man was
political enough for me and my mother, who up until her last breath, taught me,
told me and reminded me that my kind of love always mattered. so marriage was not something i reached for.
twenty years later, on june 26th, 2015, the
supreme court of the united states of america ruled that i now have the right
to marry. this is a historically huge
step forward for the community i have identified with since childhood.
this is worth celebrating and we should, i will, i am. young queer kids can now
grow up dreaming of expressing their love and commitment to other queers the
same way my straight peers can. no longer will law stop this life altering
expression of love. this ruling will
serve as yet another reminder of our existence in this society. how we love and
who we love matters because we are citizens of this country and deserve equal
rights.
as i celebrate this historic ruling, and I DO because it now provides my son an other youth with new possibilities of what love can do. however, i caution myself with
the words of gran varòn orlando gonzalez, “… if we have money to paint rainbows
on cross walks, then we can certainly find money to house queer youth who sleep
on those crosswalks.” i would add, “the will”, to house all the black and brown
queer youth who sleep on those crosswalks. the mainstream lgbtq civil rights
community must do more with regards to lgbtq communities who continue to be
crushed by systematic oppression. some of us do not have the luxury of
celebrating this historic moment because they are being held in immigrant
detention centers. some of us are not celebrating because we’re worrying about
we’re to sleep on the night of such a monumental decision by the supreme court
of the united states of america; and some of us will never be welcomed to
celebratory parties because of the shade of their skin and/or their gender
expression.
all those who worked so tirelessly for a chance at being
recognized by our government through the institution of marriage must now prove
black lives matter, trans lives matter, poz lives matter, all lgbtq lives matter.
we have not reached the end of the rainbow, not yet, but it still shines, stands and glimmers with hope.
GV: why do you think it’s important to have lgbtq nights in north phily? Orlando: because our community is expanding and it’s so much more accepted now. It shouldn’t have to be “accepted,” it should just be.
GV: do you think there is a gay latino community in philly? Orlando: oh yes. it is actually larger than it’s ever been. it needs a little guidance, much like everything else but it looks like it is going to be strong. I see in the streets, bars, super markets and laundromats. I see it everywhere.
gran varones creator, louie a. ortiz-fonseca reminds us that our silence will NOT protect us and that queer latin@s will NOT be shamed back into closets.