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Anthony: Are you from Orlando?
Alejandro: I grew up like, I jumped from place to place. I was born in Mayagüez (Puerto Rico) then I moved over here. I was raised a lot between here and Altamonte Springs and here (Orlando.) Then I moved to Philly,...

Anthony: Are you from Orlando? 

Alejandro: I grew up like, I jumped from place to place. I was born in Mayagüez (Puerto Rico) then I moved over here. I was raised a lot between here and Altamonte Springs and here (Orlando.) Then I moved to Philly, Jersey, New York – shit like that. I just bounced around a lot. My mom considers herself a gypsy. So she never wanted to stay in one place. 

Anthony: Do you have any siblings? 

Alejandro: I have my older sister from my mom and then I had my two adopted brothers; their my primos and hermanos. They live with their father now. My sister is grown and I am the only one still with my mom. 

Anthony: How long have you been dancing at Parliament House? 

Alejandro: For like four months. I like it a lot. I like the atmosphere. It’s always turned up. Even if it’s dead there is always a few people here. It’s not as crazy as it used to be. I like Parliament house now it’s more calm its not a lot of people trying to fight and shit. 

Anthony: Which room is the best room to dance in? 

Alejandro: The best money is made in the middle room because that is where everyone is going in and out but I switch rooms. I like to dance to different kinds of music. Whenever it’s Latino night, I like being on my side because of the salsa and merengue. Anthony: How has the environment been here after Pulse? Alejandro: A lot people are scared to come out now and it sucks because when you let people like that change the way you love your life freely, they win. We as a people, we have to look out for each other. We all need to stop doing the bochinche, stop trying to be on some bullshit and some drama. We all need to stand together as a people especially everything we have been through growing up. Everyone is against us so why not stand together? 

Anthony: What is a lesson you have learned that you want other varones to know? 

Alejandro: Sometimes you may go through when you’re younger but don’t never let that change you. When I was growing up, I used to get jumped like five times a day. And I used to go home crying, “Mommy, I don’t understand why these people are going against me.” And now I understand that a lot of was – it wasn’t just because I was gay – it was the fact that I wasn’t proud of who I am You need to be proud of who you are and love yourself before you can expect anyone to accept you for who you are. At the end of the day, don’t no one’s opinion matters except the one above – and he doesn’t even judge me, he blesses me everyday. You could have as much faith as you want but work comes with it. I just cant sit here and pray to him every day and hope that he takes care of me, yes, you could put everything in his hands but you gotta work for what you want. 

Anthony: When did you learn this lesson? 

Alejandro: After my car accident, I was tired. It was in 2012, I was crossing the street and there was person trying to beat the red light and he ran me and friend over. I spent three months in the hospital. I didn’t have health insurance so I couldn’t go to physical therapy but I taught myself how to walk again. I forced myself to prove them wrong. They said that I was never gonna walk and look at me now – I’m shaking my ass for money. 

Alejandro, Orlando 

Interviewed by: Anthony Leon 

Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Anthony: Where in Philly did you grow up?
Angel: I grew up all over the place. Originally I grew up in the Fairmount section. But then around 9 years old, my mom moved to the Northeast. So we lived near the Franklin mills mall for a while. Then I...

Anthony: Where in Philly did you grow up?

Angel: I grew up all over the place. Originally I grew up in the Fairmount section. But then around 9 years old, my mom moved to the Northeast. So we lived near the Franklin mills mall for a while. Then I lived in Orlando for three years between ‘04 and ‘07. Then in ‘07 I moved back to Philadelphia on my own because I kinda like hated it here. Things just weren’t working out for me. When I moved back to Philly, that is when I felt like I became an adult. I was on my own. I was doing my own thing. I finally got my own place. I felt independent. Philly is where I actually came “out”. Because for a while I was hiding who I was. I was ashamed, I was embarrassed. I didn’t want to be the way I am. Especially growing up in a church setting. So for a while I hated myself. I was just very depressed. But finally I decided to start accepting myself, when I finally realized that I am not going to change…that’s when I became my own person. That’s how I became who I am today. Yes, Philadelphia is home but it also has a special place in my heart because the community accepted me for who I am. I never felt that kind of acceptance before. So, yes Philadelphia isn’t perfect. There are issues within the community but at the same time, I am grateful for the people whom I met and the experiences that I had there because it’s molded me into what I have become today. So hopefully I am not terrible person. [LoL]

Anthony: How do you like here in Orlando the second time around?

Angel: Second time around, not so bad. I came to this city feeling very optimistic about the possibilities. I have a new attitude about what to expect when coming to Orlando. Because my first experience in Orlando wasn’t great, which is why I left. But I am a different person than I was in 2007. When I lived here I wasn’t “out”. I worked. I went home. I would play videos games and that was pretty much my life. So coming here this time around, I started off by making friends. There was one friend who I stayed in communication with, Jeff, who was with me that night at Pulse. So I reached out to him and we kinda picked up where things left off. So he showed me around downtown, took me to some clubs and introduced me to some of his friends. I was determined to enjoy the experience of living in Orlando this time around. I like Orlando. Even with everything that has happened. I like Orlando.

Anthony: I recently had a working lunch with someone from Melbourne, Australia and they showed me pictures of a massive vigil they had for Pulse. There were like 200,000 people there. How does that feel to get that kind of support from the world?

Angel: It’s amazing. On Facebook and Instagram, I have received messages from people from all over. People from Spain, Dubai, Australia, New Zealand, so it’s just incredible the amount of support that I have seen from around the world. Of course, within the United States, I have received messages from people from everywhere; the Midwest, the west coast, from home. You know, it’s been amazing. I’m hoping that with all the attention this event has caused, hopefully people will start to think about their actions, think about what is it that they say against the community, think about how they treat people within our community. Now people understand that we more visual now, people are more aware but it doesn’t change he fact that there are people who hate us for who we are and like that night, want to attack us for being who we are. So I am hopeful that with all the support out there will result in positive change.

Anthony: Do you regret moving to Orlando?

Angel: Believe it or not, no. Even after what happened, I don’t regret moving to Orlando. I am not one of those to say “Everything happens for a reason.” Because I don’t think everything happens for a reason. I do believe that some things happen for a reason. What happened at Pulse, I don’t necessarily think there was any good reason for that to happen, I really don’t. But the fact is that it did happen and as result, I am different person today than who I was on June 11th. So I have to try to make the best of my life going forward.

Angel Santiago Jr., Orlando

Interviewed by: Anthony Leon

Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Anthony: So you spent the day with us as we interviewed a few varones so you know that we start with your name and a little about your self.
Jorge: My name is Jorge Andujar. My family is originally from Puerto Rico but I was born and raised in...

Anthony: So you spent the day with us as we interviewed a few varones so you know that we start with your name and a little about your self.

Jorge: My name is Jorge Andujar. My family is originally from Puerto Rico but I was born and raised in Buffalo New York and I currently live in Kissimmee, Florida. It’s south of Orlando and I have lived here for almost 2 years.

I came out when I was 19. At the time I was working in Kailua-Kona, Hawaii and I was working for a Norwegian cruise line. I was seeing someone at the time. I was in love. It was, as you can say, my first relationship and I wanted to stay and didn’t want to come back home. I think drinking, being in that state of mind, being young and so in love made me get the courage to let my family know that I was gay. But they always knew. They accepted it. They were just waiting for me to come forward. The baggage was unnecessary for me to carry but I carried because I was afraid of being rejected. That’s why I took the job on the cruise line. I went far away as possible so I wouldn’t feel rejected. But that wasn’t the case because I wasn’t rejected. They welcomed me with open arms.
I feel not everyone can say that. I have heard stories of people whose families have not been open with them. One of my good friends who was killed in the Pulse attack, his family was not very welcoming at all. So I can see how so many people feel alone when it comes to coming out. I have to say that I have been very blessed in that aspect. I am not afraid anymore.

Anthony: Tell us about Pulse.

Jorge: I have been to Pulse many times. People weren’t afraid to go to Pulse. Pulse was not known as a dangerous place at all. Pulse was very inviting, had different environments. You didn’t have to watch the drag show if you didn’t want to even though their drag shows were very entertaining. There was an “urban” room as some would call it where they would play Hip-Hop & R&B type of music. You would have the Latino side and the English and then there was patio where there was another bar. It was just a variety. People went there to be themselves. People didn’t go there to start “stuff.” This was a place where a lot of people went to seek comfort. It was the only place besides the other gay bars where people went to be themselves without worrying about who’s watching and who you’re hiding from. Right now, people are going through not being accepted by their loved ones or by the community so this was a place to be yourself and dance all night. This is what brought people together every Saturday night, every Latin night.

Anthony: You mentioned your friend. Who was he?

Jorge: His name was Rodolfo and he was 33 years old. He was there celebrating a birthday that night and he was killed along with other friends. He was transferred to Puerto Rico. He was laid to rest in San Germán. He didn’t have family here. His friends here were his family. His family at home weren’t very accepting. Going back to the funeral – it’s kinda ironic because – most of the people were very old school and everyone was wearing t-shirts with his photo and a big rainbow going across. They didn’t realize that it was symbol of gay pride. They were talking about what happened and not being very accepting but yet they were wearing a rainbow on their shirt. It was a wake-up call like “people still don’t get it.”

Anthony: How are you holding up?

Jorge: I am at the point now where I am starting to open up to people, talk to people, start over and get to know people. I see people trying to come together as one and put their differences aside. Because this isn’t about who likes who, who doesn’t like who – this is about coming together as one. This is not about team white, team Black or team Latino – this is about team humanity.

Jorge Andujar, Orlando

Interviewed by: Anthony Leon
Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

Backstory: We met Jorge online and he invited us out for lunch. The connection was instant and he wound up tagging along as we drove around Orlando interviewing and meeting up with folks. He shared his story with us during the long ride and agreed to being interviewed on camera after witnessing the process for an entire day.

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so it has been a full week since we returned from our trip to Orlando. admittedly, we are still processing our experience but i will share some highlights.

during our time in Orlando we were able to forge a relationship with QLatinx. their hospitality not only provided healing but served as a foundation during our entire trip. many of the organizers hung out with us, invited us into their homes and into their lives. we were with familia during our entire time there and we are so grateful for our partnership.

one of the many highlights of our trip took place on Friday night. while dancing my ass off at Parliament House, i was introduced to franqui. even with the music blasting, we were able to engage in a conversation about our project. he stated that he once lived in philly and would be more than happy to share his story with us. so on Saturday afternoon, he invited us back to the club so we could interview and photograph him. chyle, when we walked up to the club, he was in a towel and said “yes, I am in towel and what!?” this when i knew his interview would be lit - and it was. his spirit was so welcoming and hsi attitude was so philly. he was yet another reminder of the resiliency and beauty that exists and continues to thrive in Orlando.

we interviewed a total of 8 varones while we were in Orlando. each and every story were both heartbreaking and inspiring. on our last night, we had an impromptu dinner at the house we were staying in. it was so last minute but each varòn pitched in to make it happen. the dinner provided an opportunity for varones to get to know each other and simply just be.

our work in not done. we will continue to work with Qlatinx and do whatever we can to be a part of the growing movement in Orlando. we will continue to share the stories of all varones who so courageously love, live and continue to dance after the pulse massacre.

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thank you to chris, miguel, jean, edwin, angel, jorge, joel and franqui for sharing your stories with us. we are beyond humbled, moved and inspired.
thank you to joshua from target and made us feel at home by just being your beautiful femme self. we look forward to hanging out with you at length the next time we in Orlando.

thank you to everyone who donated and did all that they could to make our trip possible. we invite everyone, varones and allies to support latinx queer and trans initiatives in your perspective cities. many of us are doing this work with very little resources and support is needed. if you are not sure what initiatives are happening in your city, inbox us and we will try to support you in connecting with organizers.

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Louie: Thanks for meeting with me
Efrain: No thank you! I think it’s really cool that you’re allowing me to be a part of this project. I am glad that Felix connected us.
Louie: So am I. Actually, Felix’s interview is one of the interviews that still...

Louie: Thanks for meeting with me

Efrain: No thank you! I think it’s really cool that you’re allowing me to be a part of this project. I am glad that Felix connected us.

Louie: So am I. Actually, Felix’s interview is one of the interviews that still moves me till this day and that was almost 2 years ago. So no pressure as I am about to interview you.

Efrain: None at all. [LoL]

Louie: So tell me, what did you grow up?

Efrain: I grew up in Chester, right outside of Philadelphia – by the airport. It was cool. All of my family lives out there and we were all pretty close. My father is Puerto Rican and moved to the states when he was 12. A s a kid, I loved being around that side of my family. I loved being surrounded by the culture and watching my aunt listen and dance to music while she cooked in the kitchen. It just felt like home. As far as my sexuality, I kept that to myself. I hid it – not out of shame because I was never ashamed of myself but I have a very nosy family. 

Louie: Who doesn’t? [LoL]

Efrain: Right. In my family, if you were male and didn’t say anything or make any noise when a pretty woman walked by, people had questions about you. If you didn’t like sports, people had questions about you. I didn’t like girls “that way” or sports, so questions were always there about me.. One day my cousin, being nosy as always, pulled me to the side and was like and asked me if I was gay. I answered honestly but she then started to tell other family members. So before it the information spread like wild fire, I told my parents. I felt I owed it to them to hear it from me and not anyone else.

Louie: When did you discover Philly’s Gayborhood?

Efrain: It had be like 1994. I was 16 – 17. I remember sneaking to Woody’s on young adult night. I would wait until my parents fell asleep before I left and I would leave my sneakers by the basement door and leave the door unlocked. I would return in time right before my father got up to go to work.  

Louie:  So what was that like for at age 16?

Efrain: It was good thing to see that guys were attracted to other guys. At that age, I knew that there were gay people out there but I didn’t know any at that time.  It also felt good to be in a space where you could go up to a guy and talk to him without feeling like you were going to get into a fight.

Louie: Do you remember your first Latin night at a gay club?

Efrain: It was also at Woody’s of course. It was cool because I would hear the same music that my aunt played in the kitchen.  All my friends were black and weren’t interested in going. So I jumped at the first opportunity to go. I wanted to check it out. It was cool to see other Latino gay guys too. But the interesting part that experience was how I was made to feel like I didn’t belong. Like I wasn’t “Latino” enough by the other Latino gay guys. I am not sure if it was because I didn’t look “Latino” enough or if it was because I didn’t grow up in their neighborhoods or whatever. I felt really uncomfortable and I thought it would be like home and it wasn’t. I would watch them greet each other like family and I felt excluded.

Louie: We Black Boricuas get that a lot.

Efrain: Yes, I would get asked “Oh you’re Puerto Rican, do you speak Spanish?” And when I would say no they would say “How are you Puerto Rican then if you cannot speak Spanish?” This still happened till this day. It is mainly why I stopped going to Latin night. I got tired of feeling out of place or feeling like I had to prove that that I was “Latino” enough. I love the music and I love dancing salsa but feeling out of place is not worth it – sometimes.

Louie: Do you think that could change after Pulse? How we all interact? How people make room for Black Puerto Ricans?

Efrain: I think so. I hope so. I have become friends with Ricky Melendez. He was one of the first people you interviewed.  I saw his video. He understood me and he knows what it is like and has embraced me and been really welcoming. I see people like yourself, this project and organizations like Galaei and I want to be more involved. I have fears that I will not be accepted but I want to be more involved.

Louie: Well listen, I am in Philly soon. When I am there, let’s take a visit to Galaei. You down?

Efrain: Yeah, I’m down.

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Louie: How long have you been into filming making?
Maarten: Well, let’s see. I think I started in 2010 - 2011 when I formed my independent company Purple Light Films. So not too long before I met you. Your “Start Rhyming, Stop AIDS” video campaign...

Louie: How long have you been into filming making?

Maarten: Well, let’s see. I think I started in 2010 - 2011 when I formed my independent company Purple Light Films. So not too long before I met you. Your “Start Rhyming, Stop AIDS” video campaign was the third project I had ever worked on.

Louie: Oh yeah, I forget that the first time we met in person was the day you filmed me - under a pissy bridge at that!

Maarten: Yup. You were spittin’ your poetry and I was like “Wow! So this is who Louie is.” Then the minute we finished, your ride was there and you were out. I was like “This is so Hollywood” [LOL]

Louie: Oh my gawd! Yes! I forgot about that. It was raining and I did not want to get wet. I also think I was rushing to catch a bus to Baltimore.

Maarten: Well, it was a great experience.

Louie: What got you into film making?

Maarten: I came to the states from Peru with my mother and my sister when I was 4 years old. I think the first film I saw was the “Rocky” film and it stuck out to me because it was shot in Philly. Then I saw “Philadelphia” being filmed in Philadelphia. I watched Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington at work. I remember standing in a crowd for 5 hours watching the filming of the scene where Tom Hanks is rolled out in a gurney. I was so fascinated by the cameras and the work it took to get the perfect shot. That’s when I knew I wanted to do film. When I watched the film after it was released, I was blown away that it was about a gay man. I had not known. It was the first time that I was exposed to that narrative. I knew of LGBTQ people growing up but I didn’t know them. “Philadelphia” was my first exposure.

Louie: Where in Philly did you grow up?

Maarten: Man, I was lucky enough to grow up at 6th and Tioga.

Louie: Yes, hunty! That is North Philly down!

Maarten: Yeah, I grew up with the bombas and bodegas! If I could do it all again, I would. I mean, I heard and seen a lot young eyes should not see, but it has kept me humbled, strong and street smart. I know that sounds cliche be it’s true.

Louie: I totally understand. Who did you live there with?

Maarten: My mother worked a lot when I was younger so I was raised my grand parents, specifically my grand mother. She taught me alot. When she talked, I listened. I miss her every freakin’ day of my life. Wish she could have been here during these last couple of years to ground me but I channel my thoughts and prayers into her memory and that provides me support.

Jose Maarten Oyala, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Carlos: My name is Carlos Mejias and I am from Easton Pennsylvania, about 45 minutes to an hour outside of Philly;  a small city, pretty diverse town. Growing up it wasn’t so diverse. I was the minority but it’s gotten a lot better.

Rafael: So I know that’s pretty close to Allentown and Bethlehem. So was that your first exposure to the gay scene?

Carlos: I’d say yes but not really realizing it as a kid. It was family’s friends that had children that were in their 20’s and 30’s that were[gay]. I kinda knew they were different but didn’t know exactly what it was.

Rafael: So what was it like for you growing up? What was your personally journey like?

Carlos: Growing up, I always knew I was different. But not just because of my sexuality, I also grew up with a lot of medical issues. So I always knew that I was the “oddball.” And I was cool with that. It wasn’t until I hit my teenage years. Everyone goes through their awkward stages; different types of clothing, different social groups. I was the person that hung out with everyone. I had good friends that stood up for me. I’m now 33 and I don’t think I became completely comfortable with everything until I was about 25. On my 25th birthday, my mother made one of those posters things that show me from baby until now. And looking it, I just lost it and started crying because it was one of those things, like “you are your own worse enemy” and you put yourself down so bad and I did that because of my medical issues and everything in life. It that moment, like an enlightening period, I was like “are you kidding me?” There’s nothing wrong. Looking at my photos, I didn’t look ugly but I felt it growing up. From 25 to 30, every year I work on something to make myself feel better. Get into hobbies that I like, keep busy, work with community. Once I hit 30, it was like “I’m still here, keep pushing at it.”

Carlos Mejias, Easton PA

Interviewed by: Rafael E. Alvarez-Febo

Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Louie: Thanks for taking the time to meet with me today. I think this our first time ever chatting in person.

Jay: Is it?

Louie: Yes. I remember seeing you at Shampoo Night Club but we never really talked.

Jay: Oh I remember those days. Too bad they closed it, right?

Louie: Yes. I used to get my dance on in that damn velvet room. So where in Philly did you grow up?

Jay: I grew up in northern liberties neighborhood which back then it didn’t have that name.

Louie: Yes! I grew up around there too before all the Ricans were pushed out.

Jay: My upbringing was awesome I experienced how a Latino American can enjoy living in the early 80’s enjoying the culture and music both in Spanish and English. I was the oldest in my family and I wanted to become someone that didn’t exist in my family. I didn’t want to become another gay male Hispanic in the “system”, like some who come over to just live out of the government. My view of being in the United States was to fight and strive for opportunities that some of my family members didn’t have.

Louie: When did you come “out”?

Jay: I came out late when I was 27years old. It wasn’t a bad thing.  My family had wanted me to come out but I was not ready. I was battling with my beliefs and the person who I was.

Louie: What is one thing you regret?

Jay: The one thing I regret doing is leaving my old job at the Public Defenders Association. I have to say it was the best job and a blessing for me.

Louie: Ya know, Mariah left Columbia for Virgin records because of the money. “Glitter” flopped and she was released from her contract. She has since said that was the first and last time she made a decision based on money. I think of that whenever I am being tempted to leave a job just for money.

Jay: I know its scary now to me because of what happened to me. Once I left, I everything went wrong and I lasted a year. I was fired for the first time in my life! The day I was fired, I left the building and rain fell on me. It was like a movie. So I headed to the bar at Woody’s to get drunk. [LMAO]

Louie: What is one thing you don’t regret?

Jay: I don’t regret being honest and blunt about things. I was told to keep my mouth shut when I was growing up. Not anymore.

Jay Ruiz, Philadelphia

Interviewed and Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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right here, right now, we must love each other unconditionally. why? because NO ONE else does. to some, we are lovable if we are not fem, if we are not fat, if we are “woke”, if we are masc.we can disagree, we can fight, we can be wrong and we can be right. but varones, we need all of ourselves to free ourselves. all of us.

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Louie: So you’re originally from some place in New York I have never heard of (LOL) what is the craziest experience you have had in Philadelphia?

Alejandro: The craziest experience I’ve had in Philadelphia? I briefly befriended a young homeless man in center city. I’d seen him playing a guitar on the sidewalk one day, and a few days later the guitar was gone. He said it been stolen. I spent a late night hanging out with him once, and at some point another homeless youth confronted him about something and lunged at a bunch of us with a switchblade. It was a whole different side of the city that I’ve ever seen.

Louie: So what was it like growing up in your family?

Alejandro: I had a great stretch of happy childhood at first. My parents met while working in the dining room of a hotel in the Hudson Valley, and when I was born, they lived on the second floor of another immigrant family’s house. My happiest memories are from living in a trailer that my parents rented afterwards. I loved the Muppets, so my parents bought me the “Muppet Christmas” record and for Halloween, they painstakingly carved Miss Piggy and Kermit Jack-O-Lanterns for me. As I got closer to adolescence, my parents’ marriage unraveled, and my dad started spending a lot of time elsewhere. He’d worked his way up to Maitre D at the hotel, which was good, but he worked nights, weekends, and holidays my whole childhood. There’s a lot I wish I could’ve learned from him. People respected him. My mom went to college as they were getting divorced, and she raised my sister and me as she got her bachelors, and her masters, and then started teaching English as a second language. When I came out as gay in my late teens, both of my parents were very supportive, though. They’re good people. Now that I’m an adult, I can see what qualities of my own come from them. For better or for worse I’m their creation in many ways.

Louie: You invited me to one of your stand-up performances and you were fuckin’ hilarious. Have you always known you were going to be a comedian?

Alejandro: I didn’t always know I would be a comedian, but I did always know I would be an artist, and I’ve always loved comedy. Self-knowledge is harder to come by than some people think. The only thing I’ve really ever known from the beginning is that I’m not like other people, and the rest of my life has been about trying to find my place in the world. What I love about comedy is that it gives people the freedom to talk about what this life is really like.

Alejandro Morales, Philadelphia by way of Ellenville, New York

Interviewed and Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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PREFACE:

Polls reported that Trump supporters have less formal education and the read on that is that ignorance leads people to Trump. I kinda bought that story until I did this interview.

I’ve known Bryant for years now. In this interview, which took place in a car between fast food joints on his way home, he is at a moment of uncharacteristic candor. The conviction here is not unusual in and of itself except in the anger and bitterness that he expresses. Ask him about Apple vs Android phones or McDonald’s vs Burger King and he’ll break it down for you with a playful candor that I love and admire.

When it came out that he was supporting Trump and his stance on immigration, I was shocked and intrigued. I asked and he agreed to an interview. In my preparations — in my arrogance — I am ashamed to admit that it simply did not cross my mind that a friend of mine would have a “good” reason for supporting Trump. At first, I thought he was kidding and was ready to test him. And I think he knew that. A man who always gets a little theatrics for cameras got shy for my recorder worried that he’s not going to “sound smart.”

That’s despite the fact that I certainly don’t feel any smarter than Bryant, I have received a lot more education than he has and much of it was fairly fancy. While being educated and being smart are certainly not one in the same thing, liberals — maybe even me too — more or less treat the two like they’re interchangeable.

In that difference, there are problems, things that limit people’s speech. Like, I never have to worry about sounding stupid when I open my mouth, even when I am saying something really stupid or unpopular. Like, I could get away with saying that I support Trump by saying, “I hate him, but I’m using my vote to register my protest for the corporate corruption of American politics and my disaffection for liberal political leadership.” Extra credit if I drop the word “nepotism.”

Is that really better than what Bryant cites as his reasons? Paraphrasing, he has problems with Cuban expatriates. He’s against the Wet Foot Dry Foot policy that grants Cuban expatriates immediate refugee status. Can you imagine my shock when I found myself agreeing with him? And I am Cuban! He’s speaking to a real tension that exists between Cuban Americans and other Latinos in America, one that doesn’t get discussed much publicly, especially here in Miami. We had two anti-immigrant (or let’s be honest and call it anti-Latino immigrant) Latinos running for president as Republicans and that’s all you need to know to know that their families are from Cuba. In the large shadow cast by Trump hides the fact that Latinos weren’t really voting for them either.

And now I’m stuck wondering why I’m so shocked that Bryant would touch on these issues that are important to me. We’re both children of immigrants living in Miami. I just assumed that he was wrong because he said, “Trump.” Did I figure that because he didn’t have a fancy political education, he couldn’t have any nuanced reasons for supporting Trump?

And since education clearly isn’t the issue here, I’m forced to deal with the fact that support for Trump probably has more to do with people feeling politically disenfranchised, which is a problem that’s not helped by being yelled over and called an ignorant race traitor.

If I learned anything from this interview, it’s that we should avoid discounting people’s perspectives, feelings and even opinions because of their education. We need to listen to people even when they surprise us, perhaps especially when they do. Otherwise, we’re using the politics of respectability to silence our own while the same politics are used to against us.

We’re giving people more reasons to support Trump.

Or worse.

THE INTERVIEW:

Bryant: I’m worried I’ll be shy, you know? Like, I don’t know if I’d sound smart in the interview.

Santi: You don’t have to sound smart. There is something that’s going on in America, which is baffling a lot of people, a lot of smart people do not understand what is so attractive about this guy and you do understand.

Bryant: [Laughs] It’s not the hair.

Santi: [Laughs] Right! He’s really repulsive to a lot of people, especially people on the left, who think he’s racist, who think the only people who he’s going to get are angry, white and in middle America. And that’s not you and that’s not here.

Bryant: You don’t believe in him because he was on TV?

Santi: I don’t believe in anybody.

Bryant: [Laughs] You think Hilary could do a good job?

Santi: I’m sure they all could do “a good job” and I’m even more sure that in the end, they’ll disappoint me.

Bryant: [He gets a call from his boyfriend, who I later find out is voting for Hilary Clinton.]

Santi: Where are your parents from?

Bryant: My mom is from Honduras and my dad was from Costa Rica. He passed away about ten years ago.

Santi: So they immigrated here.

Bryant: I know where this is going. About closing the borders. And I think they should close them. My mom is obviously not from here. There’s way too much people for the population. A lot of people criticize when they come to the United States. [In a mocking, whiny voice] “Why is this like this and this like that?”

Santi: Does your mom do that?

Bryant: My mom actually doesn’t do that, but my mom thinks that she’s still in her country.

Santi: What about our other friends who immigrated here?

Bryant: I don’t know. Like what friends? Like [a mutual friend of ours]? That’s a good example. He doesn’t really talk like that. He’s pretty smart. As friends-wise, closing the border, that would be sad, of course, but obviously the people that are here, are here. The people who need to come in, we should close the borders, because the population is growing too big. It’s just ridiculous. 

Like I don’t know about this Marcio Rubio or whatever guy, I don’t know about him too much, because I really didn’t look at details. But I would close the borders because everybody does everything what they want. And the people that are actually innocent are most of the time guilty. I mean the bad people are the ones that get away with stuff and the good people are the ones that get busted.

Santi: Do you know anyone who does not have “papers?”

Bryant: A lot of people at my job. 

Santi: What’s it like working there?

Bryant: I feel like it’s a lot of Cubans. It’s not that I think like you should discriminate. But I feel like it’s favoritism at my job. That’s why I haven’t been promoted to manager.

Santi: Who gets favoritism?

Bryant: As an example, [name muffled] is a good example. He’s Cuban. He’s got no papers. He says that he told me a story that he came swimming—or something like that—in a boat to the United States. He says that they caught him, put him in jail, but he did it a few times and basically they came here to Miami. But everybody at my job talks way bad about the United States. 

Santi: But I’m confused. I thought that Cubans who come here automatically get refugee status from the Wet Foot-Dry Foot policy.

Bryant: I don’t really think that should be possible. Donald Trump in one of his interviews said that he would increase the safety of the United States by increasing the steps of how you become a citizen.

Santi: You think that should be applied to Cubans?

Bryant: I think that should be applied to everyone.

Like one thing that bothers me. A lot of people ask me, “Why don’t you talk in Spanish?” And I’m like, “I’m sorry, this is the United States. I was born here. If you were born here, you should speak English.” I know it’s hard. A lot of Cuban people at my job are still learning English, but that doesn’t mean that they should become managers. Because if they become managers and don’t speak English, obviously, right there, something is wrong.

Santi: So you think the reason you haven’t been promoted to management is because of

Bryant: Oh, it’s favoritism. Because the thing was when I started, I’ve been there 10 years and everyone keeps asking me, “Oh Bryant, why aren’t you a manager? Blah, blah, blah, blah.” And I’m like, “Oh listen, this person likes this other person and that person likes that other person and whenever I say something, it’s like, ‘Bryant, why do you talk like that?’” Cause it’s the truth!

I think they should learn English first before doing the test to become a citizen. Because if Chinese people can do it, anybody can learn English, you know?

It’s ridiculous how so many people in the United States have good jobs and yet the American people, some of them don’t have good jobs. I just feel like people—specifically Cubans—they just come here, they have a lot of money, and they have these Mercedes, the best jobs and everyone else gets shit, basically. You have to know people, basically.

Bryant, Miami

Interviewed & Photographed by: Santi

Santi hates that the day has only 24 hours, a week only seven days. He has never had a summer that fit between spring and fall, a weekend that fit properly in those 48 hours. He’s said that the greatest crime ever committed was sending a child to bed when the sun still lit the summer sky. He’s recently moved to Miami where he freelances photography, videography and helps take care of his abuelo who fifty years later still longs for his home back in Santiago de Cuba. Santi started chanting “Si, se puede!” in 2006, and kept chanting until 2008 when it turned into an Obama thing. He’s been looking, off and on, for other chants ever since.

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Louie: So how do you like…?
Roman: Atlanta?
Louie: Yeah
Roman: It’s cool I had a lot of beautiful experiences here. A lot of great things have happened. I mean, it’s not where I wanna be but it is where things are poppin’ off.
Louie: So do you know...

Louie: So how do you like…?

Roman: Atlanta?

Louie: Yeah

Roman: It’s cool I had a lot of beautiful experiences here. A lot of great things have happened. I mean, it’s not where I wanna be but it is where things are poppin’ off.

Louie: So do you know any other Boricuas out here?

Roman: I met two of them. That’s it. We are like Pokémon out here. LOL

Louie: People do try to collect us. No shade. Do you have family here?

Roman: My mom lives here and my sister lives out here somewhere. LOL I left San Diego and came here. I was like “fuck it” let me just go over there.

Louie: How did you wind up in San Diego?

Roman: My friend asked me if I wanted to move there and I was like “Sure.” So I packed my shit and left. I moved from East to West and from North to South…twice.

Louie: Where were you before San Diego?

Roman: I was in Boston where I won the King of Latino Pride 2013.

Louie: Nice! What do you think made you think winner that night?

Roman: I don’t know; my outfits and answers. LOL I easily spent $2000 on my outfits and suits. Pageants are expensive.

Louie: Do you still have your sash?

Roman: Of course, I do. That’s my trophy!

Roman St. James, Atlanta GA

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Louie: So we have known each other for at for over 20 years.

Angel: Yeah, we are old! LOL

Louie: Almost lol What was it like for you in the 90s?

Angel: We were coming out with respect being ourselves. We had a club called “El Bravo” and we had so much fun. Everything at that time was on the down low; very different than how it is now. We had drag shows and the locas were everywhere but no one fucked with us.  

Louie: What is it like now?

Angel: But now we are who we are opening!  Atrevido con respect. You know what I mean? We are out and we don’t care what people say. That’s good, right? LOL

Louie: But of course loca!

Angel: Gran Varon, I love you.

Louie: I love you too, loca!

Angel Santiago, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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salute to everyone on mass transit during rush hour who pull out their phones to take a selfie! mad love to everyone who snap their beautiful faces while walking down the street, sitting at your desks at work, laying up in the emergency room, posing...

salute to everyone on mass transit during rush hour who pull out their phones to take a selfie! mad love to everyone who snap their beautiful faces while walking down the street, sitting at your desks at work, laying up in the emergency room, posing on your bed or flexin’ at the damn club. there ain’t no shame in feeling yourself in a world that attempts to trick you into hiding from yourself. don’t let anyone shame you because your phone is filled with pictures of your lovely face. celebrate that shit!

happy friday, varones! be beautiful and capture it in a selfie!

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Louie: I love that call me abuela and have my number saved in your phone with the grand mom emoji. LOL

Vince: Bendición LOL

Louie: Let’s talk about high school. Were you “out” then?

Vince: High School was actually great. I was always the kid everyone was cool with and I always respected everyone as long as they respected me. Unfortunately, during high school, I wasn’t “out” even though everyone and their mom and their grand mom knew my ass was gay. I never felt comfortable enough to come “out” even though I surrounded myself with great people, who until this day are still my great friends. But having a Pentecostal mother, I was always afraid to tell her. I’m a mama’s boy at heart and it would have been devastating if I came out to her and she didn’t accept me. I lost my dad when I was 13 and so my mother was all I had. I also had four older intimidating as fuck brothers, whom I love by the way. LOL  

Louie: So you’re hella gay ass was not out in high school? LOL

Vince: But I finally came to my mom when I was like 21. I literally waited for her to ask me and she eventually did. I went to New York with my gay cousin and she knew so that triggered her to ask . She calls mind you while I’m shopping at Forever 21 (LOL) and she told me “when you get home we need to talk.” I was like, “Yes finally!” because I didn’t have the balls to tell her. So I when home, she sat my ass on the table and was like “Tu tiene algo que decirme,” which translates “Do you have something to tell me?” I replied, “What do you want to know?” We went back and forth, I swear for like a minute when I caved in and said “If you what to know if your son is gay - yes he is.” Here come the waterworks - she start crying and I start crying, very dramatic. (LOL) She tells me, “Well, you’re my son and I always love you but I can’t accept you because of my religion. I cried like a baby when she left the dining room. I was on the couch crying thinking that my mom doesn’t love me when my sister came down and hugged me. She said “Don’t worry Vince, this is something mom’s going to have to deal with. You’re an amazing person and you do nothing but good for her. She will get over it.” She made me feel so much better. My mom and I didn’t really talk for like two weeks until she came and hugged me and ask me for 20 dollars. After that it was like everything was back to normal. LOL

Louie: So you really helped to inspire my being positive. What inspired your attitude about body positivity?

Vince: When I was young, I was always the fat chubby kid ! Growing up, I did get slightly bullied. I say “slightly” because every time someone tried it, I was like “I’ll get one of my cousin or brothers to handle my battles!” LOL But I was the “fat” kid, who had the worst over bite in the world.  Praise God and the miracle of braces! Dios gracias! LOL Puberty hit, the braces came off and I had a beard and a job while I was high school. I could finally buy what I wanted. I was still the “chubby” kid but I was now the “chubby” kid who dressed cute. But to not make it a whole long as story! Of course everyone has their insecurities but I’ve learned on my own that you have to love yourself with every flaw and “chichos” (love handles) you have! Find any moment to be who are and stay humble - keyword “humble.” No one likes someone who thinks their superior to everyone else!

Louie: You’re Colombian, right? What was like growing up in a city that predominately Puerto Rican? Be careful how you answer – I am Puerto Rican. LOL

Vince: Yeah, I’m full Colombian but my father that raised me isn’t – he was Puerto Rican. So, actually growing up with Puerto Ricans was awesome. I even speak like Rican! LOL Their crazy and loud but have always there for me even knowing that I wasn’t really my dad’s son. No one ever told me until I was 14, after he passed. I always had a feeling that he wasn’t but I always believed that your father is the man who raises you! Biological or not.

Louie: Do you know any other gay Colombians?

Vince: No. I don’t know any. If you know any let me know. LOL

Vince Cintron, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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