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Geraldo: When I was 16, I identified myself as bisexual. I remember one time, my mother went to go use our Windows 95 laptop and I was sitting on the bed shaking. I was shivering. I wasn’t sure how she would take it. So I said “What would you say if...

Geraldo: When I was 16, I identified myself as bisexual. I remember one time, my mother went to go use our Windows 95 laptop and I was sitting on the bed shaking. I was shivering. I wasn’t sure how she would take it. So I said “What would you say if I told you that I was bisexual?” What I got wasn’t the typical answer, it was “We’ll talk it about.” She left the room and we never spoke about it. But we didn’t need to because every time people came over, (my mom would be like) “Oh my god, this is my son Geraldo, he’s gay and I love him.” I kinda always knew that it was going to be okay because I have two gay uncles. Growing up, I never knew that being “straight” was how how you were “supposed” to grow up. Being gay was normal to me. It was never “wrong” in my family; it was always accepted.

Louie: How about in school? Were you teased there or made to feel different?

Geraldo: I was teased for being overweight. I was belittled. I was teased for being gay. I was teased in elementary school until high school. I was called the “F” word, I was called “fairy boy.” The whole nine yards, you name it – I was called it.

Louie: Did you tell teachers?

Geraldo: I never really told teachers. I felt like every time something was brought up to a teacher, they would never really handle it so, I just kept it myself and I didn’t really share it with anybody else.

Louie: How about your mother? Did you ever tell her?

Geraldo: I didn’t because I didn’t want her to worry about me. I knew I was really strong and I knew I could handle it by myself. I made a game plan for myself. I was always the happy one. It was always “Talk to Gerlado, he’ll give you the support.” Having people come to me for support was leverage for me. I didn’t have to tell anyone because I was always dealing with other people’s issues and stuff. So that was like my break.

Louie: Did school ever get better?

Geraldo: It did. After 9th grade, I guess everyone just realized that I was “normal” guy who just liked guys. Everyone saw me as Geraldo for once and not just the “gay guy.”

Louie: What is the greatest lesson you have learned that guides your life right now?

Geraldo: I think the greatest lesson that I have ever learned is to live life but not in the moment. In life, we always live in the moment, we never see what is around us. I always tell people – come out your box. It’s so easy, just lift the top up and you really look at what life has to offer you. You look at the past, you look at the present and you also look at the future. Inside our box, we are so enclosed in our surroundings, we can’t see what’s beyond and what’s before us and we cannot add those perspectives. Gain knowledge from the pass and use that for the future. Be open minded and not bitter. Living life is an experience.

Geraldo Oyola, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Louie: So tell me a little about yourself.

Derec: I was born in Colombia and I came to the US when I was one years old. I was adopted and I have two white parents. I grew up in Chicago, Humboldt Park area. Then we moved to Philly. My parents are involved with urban ministries. They came to Philly when I was a sophomore in high school to do some ministry work here. They have been doing it all of their lives. They still do it. They have worked with kids and communities and families. It’s really grassroots organizing.

Louie: What was that like for you growing up?

Derec: It was good. Overall my childhood was very good. I was always known that I was adopted. My parents made me aware of my culture as a Colombian. We were a close family. I struggle sometimes with my Latino identity because I am not bilingual. I feel disconnected sometimes. But I have been able to go back to Colombia a few times and that’s been helpful. I wasn’t able to visit family but I was able to visit the orphanage that I came out of. Now the orphanage is now an elementary school. The school now models the same kind of work my parents do. Its very community based. I still had questions because I wasn’t sure exactly where in Colombia I was born. So one of the ladies at the orphanage, who was there when I was there as child, because of her, I was able to go on a local radio station to be interviewed and then asked their listeners to call if they had any information. A TV show even came to orphanage to interview me. I just said “Mom, if you are out there, I hope you are doing well.” I would probably burst out crying if I met my birth mom and dad. It would be surreal.

Louie: Wow. thank you for sharing that. Now you work in adoptions and with families, right?

Derec: I was adopted and it just so happened that I got into adoption and social work by happy stance. It wasn’t until my job when I was working in foster care that I moved into adoption work. It just happened. It’ stressful at times but it is gratifying. I am learning new things about people, about me, about society. The main thing is that I want the best for kids and families.
Louie: What was the toughest thing to deal with as kid growing up?
Derec: I always felt different as a kid. I always knew that part of me and I knew that was something my parents would not accept or be open to. I didn’t come “out” to them. I was forced “out.” I told someone in my church thinking it was in confidence because I actually attracted to this person and instead of him keeping it to himself; he said that he needed to tell leadership. I was like “hello, that’s my father!” This was my senior year of college and that summer was hard. They were like “we’re gonna get you help.” That was their response. I was revered highly prior to that. I was really involved with the church and then my father said that I couldn’t do certain things. That created an awful feeling in me. But once I was forced “out,” (the “closet”) to my family, that was it; there was no going back in. 

Louie: So are things now with your family?

Derec: Fast forward 25 years, I am a loner. I’m happy overall. I’m still close to my family but when it comes to my sexuality, it’s still hush-hush. We don’t talk much about it. I do go to openly gay church that helps a lot with my faith. I turn to prayer for everything. It keeps me grounded. It allows me to learn how to love. It gives me encouragement.

Derec Baker-Gutierrez, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photoghraphed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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for the past few months, several community members and groups, including gran varones, have been demanding that the philly queer community and those in leadership positions address the gayborhood’s covert racism and pervasive anti-blackness. but we have been met with not just resistance but with more anti-blackness.

just a week ago the philadelphia’s director of lgbtq affairs was quoted saying “I believe that Gayborhood business owners genuinely want to address the community’s concerns and to ensure that everyone feels safe and welcome.” the foundation of this statement was violent because it communicated that we were making shit up and that if we somehow believe - just believe in the “goodwill” of gay business owners - things will get “better.”

she also mentioned that the office of lgbtq affairs was working with philly black pride on a four point action plan. i have to note that a member of philly pride stated that gran varones and black & brown led efforts were not doing work that is “transformative” in addressing the systematic anti-blackness in the gayboyhood. this was stated when we, along with other folks stated they we were not interested in working with or centering white allies. we experience the statement as an attack. for an established and funded project like philly black pride to minimize the work of grassroots and non-funded efforts like gran varones and the Black & Brown Workers Collective it hella violent. especially when icandy and their shady “no-timbs” policy. but i digress. back to the reason i started this post.

early this morning, a lovely angel posted a video of the owner of icandy, a gay club frequented by black and brown queer folks, repeating the “n” word and laughing. stating at all we want are free drink tickets. chyle! even the person he was talking to in the video gagged. at the end of the video, you hear the person say “oh my god.” i imagined he clutched his pearls.

so after being told that we were creating trouble, we now have receipts! and this receipt is one that comes with coupons, honey! while a sex tape can jumpstart a career - a racist tape still has the power to destroy one.

the owner has posted an “apology” confirming that it is his voice. read below.

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the response has been swift with the black & brown workers collective protesting in front of iCandy earlier this evening calling for a boycott as well as demanding the LGBTQ community and leaders address this issue and the anti-blackness that continues to erode philly’s queer community. during the protest, the BBWC passed out “free drink” tickets to people walking into iCandy. 

to all black and brown queers challenging the anti-blackness and transphobia in gayborhood all around the country - we salute you and we believe you!

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Louie: Thank you for coming to Philly to meet with me. I really appreciate it. I had wanted to ask you for a while to interview for the project but was afraid. Peter: Why? I love the project. I am glad to do this. I have so many stories. Louie: Let’s...

Louie: Thank you for coming to Philly to meet with me. I really appreciate it. I had wanted to ask you for a while to interview for the project but was afraid.

Peter: Why? I love the project. I am glad to do this. I have so many stories.

Louie: Let’s start with you. Tell me a little about yourself.

Peter: I’m from New York originally. I grew up partly in Glen Clove, Long Island and Delaware. I went to high school in Delaware. I came out…no I didn’t come out, my mother pulled me “out.” A cousin of mine moved from Puerto Rico to North Philly. He passed away, his name was Alfredo. Alfredo was a big queen. I always knew he was a big queen, ya know just “under cover.” Well honey, he got drunk one night and came home to my cousin’s house and was telling my cousin he met these guys and blah, blah, blah. Well they told my stepdad. So my mom told me and I am laughing because I thought it was funny. Mommy goes, she says to me in Spanish, “Don’t laugh about his situation because you into that sort of lifestyle too.” I was 18 at the time and I said “Oh. Well this is my signal to come out.” So eventually I left high school and I came out. I was like “Fuck It. I am not going to be “straight.” I’m not going to pretend.” Because I was pretending. The whole time, I dated girls and that stuff. I did that more for my stepdad than my mom because of that whole machismo thing. So I came out. I said, “My mother knows so I am cool.” Mommy goes “You don’t think I knew? I knew ever since you were little. I was just waiting for you to tell me.” So I don’t have a traditional “coming out” story. I didn’t tell my mom, she told me.

Louie: So what originally brought you to Philly?

Peter: I met this guy who had the same name as the singer Bobby Brown. He was this black dude who lived in North Philly. We met at Smarts* and we started communicating on the phone, ya know it was 80s. he “supposedly” loved me and I “loved” him so I moved to Philly. I didn’t even give my notice. I up and left, I disappeared. My mother didn’t even know where I was for a whole month ‘cuz I was in love. I was 21 at the time and just started going to the clubs.

Louie: Were there other gay Latinos?

Peter: It was me and miss David. Then I met a few other ones. I met Alexis, Pedro, he had long hair and liked to vogue. I met all those Puerto Ricans. But there was a divide because I hung around a whole bunch of black kids. They (the Latino queens) didn’t like because they thought I was trying to be “black.” I was just being me. I got along with everybody but they were ones trying to throw me shade. It was hard at first because you want to be around other Puerto Ricans that were gay and you want to be included in that community because they are not many of us began of the struggle we have amongst ourselves as Latinos.

Louie: How did you get involved in the Ballroom scene?

Peter: The balls, I was introduced to in 1988. I saw people Voguing and carrying on and I didn’t know what it was. And I was like “I wanna do that!” I started learning it by going to the Nile*. It was interesting and I caught on real quick. My first House was the House of Prestige. I was the only Puerto Rican in that House. My category was hair affair and old way. The ballroom was picking up here in Philly. Later I joined the House of Africa. Tracy Africa’s house opened a chapter here in Philly. I did Butch Queen Up In Drags for their House.

Louie: So you are in Delaware now. Why did you move back there and what is gay life out there?

Peter: talk about the gays in Delaware. Let’s talk about the Latino gays in Delaware. There’s hardly none. And the few there that they have are whack. It’s truthful. Then they have the nerve to give you shade and I’m like “Gurl, we should stick together.” Gay life in Delaware is very limited. Philly gay life is “OK” now but Philly back in the day was fun. There was a golden era up to ’94. They have all these new clubs but they are geared to the white gays. They don’t gear to us. Even New York has changed. Nothing’s the same.

Peter DaVilla-Montes, Delaware

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

*Smarts & The Nile were gay night clubs in Philadelphia that had a large black following. Both clubs were closed by the mid-90’s.

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on saturday, june 11th, we screened this short compilation of gran varones stories at the philadelphia latino film festival. our goal was to highlight the specific stories of varones living in philadelphia.

we then had planned on posting this edit the following day but all of our lives changed on june 12th. since then, we have worked hard to ensure that our stories are told and heard. our goal is to continue to create and post gran varones stories from all over the country. until then, check out our humble mini-doc.

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Anthony: Where in Philly did you grow up? Angel: I grew up all over the place. Originally I grew up in the Fairmount section. But then around 9 years old, my mom moved to the Northeast. So we lived near the Franklin mills mall for a while. Then I...

Anthony: Where in Philly did you grow up?

Angel: I grew up all over the place. Originally I grew up in the Fairmount section. But then around 9 years old, my mom moved to the Northeast. So we lived near the Franklin mills mall for a while. Then I lived in Orlando for three years between ‘04 and ‘07. Then in ‘07 I moved back to Philadelphia on my own because I kinda like hated it here. Things just weren’t working out for me. When I moved back to Philly, that is when I felt like I became an adult. I was on my own. I was doing my own thing. I finally got my own place. I felt independent. Philly is where I actually came “out”. Because for a while I was hiding who I was. I was ashamed, I was embarrassed. I didn’t want to be the way I am. Especially growing up in a church setting. So for a while I hated myself. I was just very depressed. But finally I decided to start accepting myself, when I finally realized that I am not going to change…that’s when I became my own person. That’s how I became who I am today. Yes, Philadelphia is home but it also has a special place in my heart because the community accepted me for who I am. I never felt that kind of acceptance before. So, yes Philadelphia isn’t perfect. There are issues within the community but at the same time, I am grateful for the people whom I met and the experiences that I had there because it’s molded me into what I have become today. So hopefully I am not terrible person. [LoL]

Anthony: How do you like here in Orlando the second time around?

Angel: Second time around, not so bad. I came to this city feeling very optimistic about the possibilities. I have a new attitude about what to expect when coming to Orlando. Because my first experience in Orlando wasn’t great, which is why I left. But I am a different person than I was in 2007. When I lived here I wasn’t “out”. I worked. I went home. I would play videos games and that was pretty much my life. So coming here this time around, I started off by making friends. There was one friend who I stayed in communication with, Jeff, who was with me that night at Pulse. So I reached out to him and we kinda picked up where things left off. So he showed me around downtown, took me to some clubs and introduced me to some of his friends. I was determined to enjoy the experience of living in Orlando this time around. I like Orlando. Even with everything that has happened. I like Orlando.

Anthony: I recently had a working lunch with someone from Melbourne, Australia and they showed me pictures of a massive vigil they had for Pulse. There were like 200,000 people there. How does that feel to get that kind of support from the world?

Angel: It’s amazing. On Facebook and Instagram, I have received messages from people from all over. People from Spain, Dubai, Australia, New Zealand, so it’s just incredible the amount of support that I have seen from around the world. Of course, within the United States, I have received messages from people from everywhere; the Midwest, the west coast, from home. You know, it’s been amazing. I’m hoping that with all the attention this event has caused, hopefully people will start to think about their actions, think about what is it that they say against the community, think about how they treat people within our community. Now people understand that we more visual now, people are more aware but it doesn’t change he fact that there are people who hate us for who we are and like that night, want to attack us for being who we are. So I am hopeful that with all the support out there will result in positive change.

Anthony: Do you regret moving to Orlando?

Angel: Believe it or not, no. Even after what happened, I don’t regret moving to Orlando. I am not one of those to say “Everything happens for a reason.” Because I don’t think everything happens for a reason. I do believe that some things happen for a reason. What happened at Pulse, I don’t necessarily think there was any good reason for that to happen, I really don’t. But the fact is that it did happen and as result, I am different person today than who I was on June 11th. So I have to try to make the best of my life going forward.

Angel Santiago Jr., Orlando

Interviewed by: Anthony Leon

Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Louie: Thanks for meeting with me Efrain: No thank you! I think it’s really cool that you’re allowing me to be a part of this project. I am glad that Felix connected us. Louie: So am I. Actually, Felix’s interview is one of the interviews that still...

Louie: Thanks for meeting with me

Efrain: No thank you! I think it’s really cool that you’re allowing me to be a part of this project. I am glad that Felix connected us.

Louie: So am I. Actually, Felix’s interview is one of the interviews that still moves me till this day and that was almost 2 years ago. So no pressure as I am about to interview you.

Efrain: None at all. [LoL]

Louie: So tell me, what did you grow up?

Efrain: I grew up in Chester, right outside of Philadelphia – by the airport. It was cool. All of my family lives out there and we were all pretty close. My father is Puerto Rican and moved to the states when he was 12. A s a kid, I loved being around that side of my family. I loved being surrounded by the culture and watching my aunt listen and dance to music while she cooked in the kitchen. It just felt like home. As far as my sexuality, I kept that to myself. I hid it – not out of shame because I was never ashamed of myself but I have a very nosy family. 

Louie: Who doesn’t? [LoL]

Efrain: Right. In my family, if you were male and didn’t say anything or make any noise when a pretty woman walked by, people had questions about you. If you didn’t like sports, people had questions about you. I didn’t like girls “that way” or sports, so questions were always there about me.. One day my cousin, being nosy as always, pulled me to the side and was like and asked me if I was gay. I answered honestly but she then started to tell other family members. So before it the information spread like wild fire, I told my parents. I felt I owed it to them to hear it from me and not anyone else.

Louie: When did you discover Philly’s Gayborhood?

Efrain: It had be like 1994. I was 16 – 17. I remember sneaking to Woody’s on young adult night. I would wait until my parents fell asleep before I left and I would leave my sneakers by the basement door and leave the door unlocked. I would return in time right before my father got up to go to work.  

Louie:  So what was that like for at age 16?

Efrain: It was good thing to see that guys were attracted to other guys. At that age, I knew that there were gay people out there but I didn’t know any at that time.  It also felt good to be in a space where you could go up to a guy and talk to him without feeling like you were going to get into a fight.

Louie: Do you remember your first Latin night at a gay club?

Efrain: It was also at Woody’s of course. It was cool because I would hear the same music that my aunt played in the kitchen.  All my friends were black and weren’t interested in going. So I jumped at the first opportunity to go. I wanted to check it out. It was cool to see other Latino gay guys too. But the interesting part that experience was how I was made to feel like I didn’t belong. Like I wasn’t “Latino” enough by the other Latino gay guys. I am not sure if it was because I didn’t look “Latino” enough or if it was because I didn’t grow up in their neighborhoods or whatever. I felt really uncomfortable and I thought it would be like home and it wasn’t. I would watch them greet each other like family and I felt excluded.

Louie: We Black Boricuas get that a lot.

Efrain: Yes, I would get asked “Oh you’re Puerto Rican, do you speak Spanish?” And when I would say no they would say “How are you Puerto Rican then if you cannot speak Spanish?” This still happened till this day. It is mainly why I stopped going to Latin night. I got tired of feeling out of place or feeling like I had to prove that that I was “Latino” enough. I love the music and I love dancing salsa but feeling out of place is not worth it – sometimes.

Louie: Do you think that could change after Pulse? How we all interact? How people make room for Black Puerto Ricans?

Efrain: I think so. I hope so. I have become friends with Ricky Melendez. He was one of the first people you interviewed.  I saw his video. He understood me and he knows what it is like and has embraced me and been really welcoming. I see people like yourself, this project and organizations like Galaei and I want to be more involved. I have fears that I will not be accepted but I want to be more involved.

Louie: Well listen, I am in Philly soon. When I am there, let’s take a visit to Galaei. You down?

Efrain: Yeah, I’m down.

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Louie: So where’d ya grow up?

Emmanuel: I grew up in Jersey, I moved to Philly when I was 21. I think I was really attracted to Philly because I was looking for peers like myself, young people who were “out”, and they wanted to find other places to hang out. I was looking for comradely or a brotherhood type of thing.

Louie: You found in it in Philly?

Emmanuel: Yes. I love Philly.

Louie: Philly is amazing. I may have to move soon and I am so afraid. One thing that is interesting is that in Philly the word “Queer” means different things to different people. How do you feel about the word “Queer?”

Emmanuel: I like the word queer. I don’t have an issue with it. I think that its encompassing of a lot of things, I think for me its like a celebratory kind of word. It speaks to a sense of community. And I love being Puerto Rican and Queer. Our culture is multifaceted and there is such a diaspora of colors, experiences and love.  

Louie: When did you start feeling confident about yourself and identity?

Emmanuel: I came out when I was 14, my freshmen year in high school and I was going through a lot. My father had just passed away, he passed away because of HIV, and it was a very hard time for me in my life. Being young and being closeted, going into my freshmen year in high school, I felt so much pressure to like conform to the “norm” of people might expect. I didn’t want to deal with any of that pressure, I didn’t want to hide myself or try to be something that I wasn’t. I wanted to live in my truth and have the freedom to be who I am and not necessarily letting being gay define me because it is only one element of who I am.

Emmanuel Claudio, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Louie: How long have you been into filming making? Maarten: Well, let’s see. I think I started in 2010 - 2011 when I formed my independent company Purple Light Films. So not too long before I met you. Your “Start Rhyming, Stop AIDS” video campaign...

Louie: How long have you been into filming making?

Maarten: Well, let’s see. I think I started in 2010 - 2011 when I formed my independent company Purple Light Films. So not too long before I met you. Your “Start Rhyming, Stop AIDS” video campaign was the third project I had ever worked on.

Louie: Oh yeah, I forget that the first time we met in person was the day you filmed me - under a pissy bridge at that!

Maarten: Yup. You were spittin’ your poetry and I was like “Wow! So this is who Louie is.” Then the minute we finished, your ride was there and you were out. I was like “This is so Hollywood” [LOL]

Louie: Oh my gawd! Yes! I forgot about that. It was raining and I did not want to get wet. I also think I was rushing to catch a bus to Baltimore.

Maarten: Well, it was a great experience.

Louie: What got you into film making?

Maarten: I came to the states from Peru with my mother and my sister when I was 4 years old. I think the first film I saw was the “Rocky” film and it stuck out to me because it was shot in Philly. Then I saw “Philadelphia” being filmed in Philadelphia. I watched Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington at work. I remember standing in a crowd for 5 hours watching the filming of the scene where Tom Hanks is rolled out in a gurney. I was so fascinated by the cameras and the work it took to get the perfect shot. That’s when I knew I wanted to do film. When I watched the film after it was released, I was blown away that it was about a gay man. I had not known. It was the first time that I was exposed to that narrative. I knew of LGBTQ people growing up but I didn’t know them. “Philadelphia” was my first exposure.

Louie: Where in Philly did you grow up?

Maarten: Man, I was lucky enough to grow up at 6th and Tioga.

Louie: Yes, hunty! That is North Philly down!

Maarten: Yeah, I grew up with the bombas and bodegas! If I could do it all again, I would. I mean, I heard and seen a lot young eyes should not see, but it has kept me humbled, strong and street smart. I know that sounds cliche be it’s true.

Louie: I totally understand. Who did you live there with?

Maarten: My mother worked a lot when I was younger so I was raised my grand parents, specifically my grand mother. She taught me alot. When she talked, I listened. I miss her every freakin’ day of my life. Wish she could have been here during these last couple of years to ground me but I channel my thoughts and prayers into her memory and that provides me support.

Jose Maarten Oyala, Philadelphia

Interviewed & Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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Carlos: My name is Carlos Mejias and I am from Easton Pennsylvania, about 45 minutes to an hour outside of Philly;  a small city, pretty diverse town. Growing up it wasn’t so diverse. I was the minority but it’s gotten a lot better.

Rafael: So I know that’s pretty close to Allentown and Bethlehem. So was that your first exposure to the gay scene?

Carlos: I’d say yes but not really realizing it as a kid. It was family’s friends that had children that were in their 20’s and 30’s that were[gay]. I kinda knew they were different but didn’t know exactly what it was.

Rafael: So what was it like for you growing up? What was your personally journey like?

Carlos: Growing up, I always knew I was different. But not just because of my sexuality, I also grew up with a lot of medical issues. So I always knew that I was the “oddball.” And I was cool with that. It wasn’t until I hit my teenage years. Everyone goes through their awkward stages; different types of clothing, different social groups. I was the person that hung out with everyone. I had good friends that stood up for me. I’m now 33 and I don’t think I became completely comfortable with everything until I was about 25. On my 25th birthday, my mother made one of those posters things that show me from baby until now. And looking it, I just lost it and started crying because it was one of those things, like “you are your own worse enemy” and you put yourself down so bad and I did that because of my medical issues and everything in life. It that moment, like an enlightening period, I was like “are you kidding me?” There’s nothing wrong. Looking at my photos, I didn’t look ugly but I felt it growing up. From 25 to 30, every year I work on something to make myself feel better. Get into hobbies that I like, keep busy, work with community. Once I hit 30, it was like “I’m still here, keep pushing at it.”

Carlos Mejias, Easton PA

Interviewed by: Rafael E. Alvarez-Febo

Photographed by: Louie A. Ortiz-Fonseca

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julio mangual aka lady labelle is one of philadelphia’s most beloved afro-boricua drag queens. he has one of the first queens to organize drag shows in the heart of north philly - a world away from philly’s gayborhood - in the early 1990s. lady labelle continues to break down barriers by performing in bars and clubs that my uncle, my bother and aunts go to. 

watch our latest gran varones profile video as julio aka lady label shares their story. 

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happy father’s day to all varones. those who are raising and nurturing. those who are guiding and leading. those who are passing along family traditions while expanding what our familia looks like. we celebrate and salute you on this day. ¡feliz día...

happy father’s day to all varones. those who are raising and nurturing. those who are guiding and leading. those who are passing along family traditions while expanding what our familia looks like. we celebrate and salute you on this day. 

¡feliz día de los padres!

photo: karlos nuñez & david agosto with their lovely daughter natalia. 

photographed by: louie a. ortiz-fonseca

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